Did Leonard Cohen save my life?
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This photograph of Leonard Cohen and the second at the very bottom of this page are by Ethan Hill, who took the wonderful photos of me for Esquire.
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In the article about me that Chris Jones wrote in Esquire, there was one statement that startled me. He says Leonard Cohen's song "I'm Your Man" saved my life.
My wife Chaz told Chris that on my last day in the hospital after my first surgery, when I was walking and talking and the surgery looked like a success, we were listening to Cohen on my iPod. "I'm Your Man" wasn't Our Song. That's Rod Stewart's "You're in My Heart." But "I'm Your Man" was what I liked to play
"to" Chaz, with Leonard singing on my behalf, you see.
As usual, I must have been conducting the music in the air and so on. It's a long song. When it finished, I was ready to go home and then my cartoid artery burst. My doctors were in the room to say goodbye. The red button was pushed, an emergency team materialized, I was rushed to the OR, and my life was saved.
So the logic suggests that Leonard Cohen's "I'm Your Man" saved my life. Is this true? I have no idea. The events of that day remain a mental blank. In fact, many of the things Chaz tells me about subsequent hospital events are absent or cloudy in my mind.
But I think it deserves another listen.
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The trailer for the documentary:
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From Robert Altman's "McCabe and Mrs. Miller."
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Whether or not he literally saved your life, I'm convined that Leonard Cohen possesses some sort of mystical power. I flew 3,000 miles to see him perform at the Beacon Theatre in NYC last year and it was worth every penny. For further evidence, check out the newly released Live at the Isle of Wight: 1970 DVD, in which Cohen enchants a crowd of 600,000 people who up to that point had been setting things on fire.
Roger, my favourite Cohen song is from his 2001 album and it is called "By The Rivers Dark".
Thank you Leonard Cohen, for saving Roger's life and for your music.
Eternally grateful for both.
Indian Idiot (H.W.)
As any bloke who loves music, I'm fond of saying this or that song has saved my life. It may be true in many ways, but not in the way you just wrote. That is truly unique (or at least not seen by me before).
It's nice to read something new from your life and mind every day. Keep the good writing coming, 'cause I'm always reading up!
P.S.: Songs that have "saved" my life:
"Never is a Promise" Fiona Apple
"Morning Morgantown" Joni Mitchell
"Dream Brother" Jeff Buckley
"Oceans" Pearl Jam
"Parabola" Tool
"I'll be seeing you" performed by Billie Holiday
That's awesome. One of my all-time favorite artists saved the life of my favorite critic. Probably karma from putting "McCabe & Mrs. Miller" on your Great Movies list.
I think everyone should have an iPod playlist for just this purpose. Some slow songs if it's appropriate to drift off to the hereafter. Some upbeat songs to rouse the patient out of a coma. Some that are particularly poetic and nostalgic so the music won't get old when played over and over. What's on mine?Travelling Wilburies, Iggy Pop, Jethro Tull, Robert Plant, Alabama 3...
I think "I'm Your Man" is just about as good a song as any to save a life. I agree with all the comments posted above. I saw Cohen just a few months back, a concert I had waited 16 years to see (I'm not that old, yet...) and it was worth every second of anticipation.
Leonard Cohen indeed works magic, and he may have worked his magic on you. I'm very, very grateful that he did.
Your profile in Esquire was beautiful, and I have always had, and continue to have, the utmost respect and admiration for you as a film critic and a journalist. Now I can follow every hilarious thought on Twitter too. Yippee!
Bird on The Wire has saved my life, I'm quite sure. I have tried in my way to be free.
I thought so then, but now I'm sure you were right yesterday when you tweeted about having the smartest readers on the Internet.
I know I am a lot smarter now for having read this.
:)
Obviously you could have gone on and on and on with the YouTube embeds but I have to link to this pre-1970 gem of a performance: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x_223jKXKgQ.
And there I was thinking the Cohen song that saved your life was 'Don't Go Home With Your Hard On'.
Keep up the good work!
We are all certainly glad you paused to listen that day.
That song has probably created life more than once, too.
Cohen is one of those artists that makes me remember how it felt to be religious, as a child. Pure and uncomplicated, somehow.
(Ring the bells that still can ring
Forget your perfect offering
There is a crack, a crack in everything
That's how the light gets in)
There are so many great songs he's written. I put him in my holy trinity of songwriting (Bob Dylan / Leonard Cohen / Tom Waits) and I'll bet all of us could list a top five Cohen songs and not repeat a one. My favorite Cohen song is "Suzanne". There's something mysterious about it, in the old sense of Mystery. A kind of wisdom beyond knowledge. The rites and sacrifices of love. The connection between all things. She shows you where to look among the garbage and the flowers. There are heroes in the seaweed, there are children in the morning. They are leaning out for love, they will lean that way forever while Suzanne holds the mirror.
The only good cover version of one of Cohen's songs that I can think of is one from that documentary, Rufus Wainwright's version of "Chelsea Hotel No. 2". I think it's fundamentally different from Cohen's, but in a way I can sympathize with. Rufus is a singer of my generation, and in his version I hear a lot more regret. She never said "I need you" or all of that jiving around, but maybe he wishes she had. Maybe they were too cool for that sort of thing, and it's really too bad. A lot of the performances in the film are great but that's the only song that made it to my iPod.
(Jeff Buckley sang so beautifully, but I don't know that he understood "Hallelujah". Not like Cohen did. That's the problem with most covers of Leonard Cohen, I think.)
I was still in high school when I first heard Leonard's music, specifically his "The Future" album. There wasn't a hope of using it to win over my friends at the time but I've remained a fan ever since. In 2008 I was fortunate enough to see one of his performances at the 02 arena in London and it was the closest I've ever come to a religious experience.
"There is a crack in everything - that's how the light gets in" Can the man in the sky provide much more wisdom than that?
lenny c did it to me
Leonard Cohen lifts my spirits just by being on the planet. And, so does Roger. :)
Leonard Cohen captivated and captured me in the mid-1960's. His music had a redemptive quality that I couldn't resist. Critics say the choice of 'Hallelujah' was inappropriate for the opening activities of the Olympics. I disagree, perhaps because I thought it was the best part of the that otherwise flat 'festivity.'
-my 2 cents.
Here's another link worth adding:
http://www.nfb.ca/film/ladies_and_gentlemen_mr_leonard_cohen/
One of my favorite films.
Leonard Cohen shames me, makes me feel, at once, more and less like a man.
I've been a fan of Leonard Cohen for a decade or two. I finally saw him in concert a few months ago and it was superb...one of the best gifts I've given to myself in a really long time.
I'm glad you like him too. And were saved by him. He does amazing work! :)
Mr Ebert: LC is one of my "desert island " musicians. His songwriting and phrasing are impeccable. He did a duet album with Jennifer Warnes that was actually quite good; "Famous Blue Raincoat". Check it out if you have a chance.
I have watched then later read your reviews for several years and also have several of your books. Erudite writing concerning film is always a pleasure.
Blessings to you, and to borrow a line from Neil Young "Long may you run".
I have been a fan of Leonard Cohen since his first book of poetry was published, "Let us compare mythologies," in the early sixties. I have all his books and music and have never tired of the depth and freshness of his vision as he dances in the dark, the great holy mystery his partner.
Do yourself a favor and pick up the novel, "Beautiful Losers," if for nothing else the portion, "God is alive," which Buffy Sainte Marie turned into a song.
I am fortunate enough to have an anthology of his poetry which he autographed for me.
Let's cherish him while we have him.
"Pure and uncomplicated, somehow.
(Ring the bells that still can ring
Forget your perfect offering
There is a crack, a crack in everything
That's how the light gets in)"
and
"My favorite Cohen song is "Suzanne". There's something mysterious about it, in the old sense of Mystery. A kind of wisdom beyond knowledge. The rites and sacrifices of love. The connection between all things. She shows you where to look among the garbage and the flowers. There are heroes in the seaweed, there are children in the morning. They are leaning out for love, they will lean that way forever while Suzanne holds the mirror."
So perfectly said, lizvelrene.
Dear Roger ~
Thank you so much for giving Leonard Cohen so much attention. Life and love work in such mysterious ways... and Leonard is so deeply in touch them and with mystery that I'm not at all surprized at the timing of your personal event relative to his song. I am so glad that Leonard has been there for you in multiple ways.
Your multitude of links to his songs reveals a very deep love of his music. How heartening to see that. I, too, was a devoted watcher of your and Siskel's movie reviews. They are the ones I always took seriously, even if to balance the differences between yours and his. I miss having them there for us... and, still, I am glad to see you writing and sharing what's irrepressible within you.
I love the photos of Leonard. Only he could manage such a balancing act of a hat rack, and with his own on, as well ;). The second one is blissfully sweet. It's so Leonard. I would love to hear the back story of how that pose came to be.
Thank you, Roger, for sharing with the world your love for Leonard.
May you continue to do as well as you are. You're a paragon of will and goodwill.
Highest regards,
Lizzy